I've been pondering this thought lately...
"The best use of imagination is creativity. The worst use of imagination is anxiety." - Deepak Chopra
Here's my problem: I am running an intensely creative business while trying my hardest to keep my anxiety under control. Had I seen this quote over two years ago, I may not have taken the gigantic leap out of my full-time corporate job with a bi-weekly paycheck into the life of full-time entrepreneurship. I feel like I did all of the right things to prepare me for this lifestyle (and yes, entrepreneurship is a lifestyle, not a clock-in clock-out job): I took an amazing crash course, did in-depth market research and competitor analysis, wrote out a business plan that included all of the financial mumbo-jumbo I knew nothing about before, filed all legal documents, opened a business bank account, etc. I shouldn't forget to mention that I have been creating glass art since before I became a teenager.
What I didn't realize was how much mental stamina it would take to go on this journey. Having gone through some significantly traumatizing events prior to launching my business full-time, I thought creating and selling my glass art would be more therapeutic and less anxiety-inducing. Boy was I wrong. This has been an incredible roller-coaster of emotions, day-in and day-out. While creating glass art has always been a passion of mine and I love doing it, sometimes I just get stuck in a creative rut. (Remember that quote I mentioned?) When I get stuck in a creative rut, I either choose to pivot and focus on a new technique or I get paralyzed and stop working in my studio altogether. Instead, I focus on business development. I never stop working; I just work on something different.
I know some people wonder why on earth I am blogging about this and not showing the happy-go-lucky face of my business. I like to be completely open and honest about what I am going through because I know I am not the only one. If I can help even one person feel just a little bit less alone, then it is worth sharing my story. I have never heard a single person say running a business is easy. There are always ups and downs, big wins and big losses. Running a business while managing chronic illnesses is even more difficult -- but totally possible! I know regardless of what ups and downs and twists and turns my journey takes me on, I am putting in my heart and soul and I cannot be more proud of myself.